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However you find me to your current day, these are the beliefs I am working with at the time of this writing (1.20 am, 9 June 2026)
I believe in what I want, I believe that to want and to not want are reasons unto themselves. 

I believe that I can make a wonderful physique for myself. Perhaps not as bulky or perfect as Mr. Arnold Schwarzenegger, but certainly not as scrawny. The ceiling need not always be reached to be satisfying to my particular nature. 27 year old Arnold once said that to get a pump to him is as good as an orgasm… good for him but I dont think I am cut out to take things that far. So yes, an exceptional physique that turns heads during my day.

A life free from reliance on Instagram or my phone. Reliance and use are different things. Reliance, it will show to people in my eyes, just like a man who thinks he is not drunk himself, is an open book to others. You will know when I am relying and when I am free.

I believe I can master stage presence and skills like the guitar, perhaps not on the level of someone like Prince, but certainly his energy and coolness. I won’t enter bars without knowing I can perform and entertain.

I believe I can learn things and enjoy doing so. I believe I can be a cool nerd, usefully so. Such as my interest in that problem where a bee slides down a curved thread faster than a straight diagonal line. Moreover, it reaches the end at the same time regardless of where on the curved string it is released. Is this not akin to life, where not only the obviously fastest is often the slowest, but also where one has the assurance that, even if he begin the thread’s journey later rather than sooner, one will reach at the same time. It is never too late, to go down the slide of life. We all reach at the same time.

I believe in the fact that it is how often I think/believe something, rather than the nature of that thing, which makes it come true. It is how often I think each day, about myself, my goals and my goodwill which makes each of them come true, rather than how their scale. One incredible grand thought is eclipsed by a thousand small ones. Here too, do not think grand does not matter. Grand is important to keep you motivated, and it is all about tipping the scales in your favour. There will be tough times, but see to it you recognise that their severity and duration reduces through your life. If it does, you are in the right direction. Over time, one understands oneself better and better, which allows for both, the reduction of harm due to faulty conditionings as well as the motivation and desire to move toward health and prosperity. Never confuse health for outside symptoms- Michael Jackson achieved much yet his health was failing. This is because, though he came so close to the understanding of trauma, he ultimately succumbed to the wounds of his past. Ask yourself this- could Michael, toward the end of his life, or at any point, have gotten into the real estate business? Could he have retired? No, because Michael Jackson was bigger than himself.

No problem in being bigger than yourself, but ensure the foundation is true and clean. And this, this must be done persistently and frequently. The foundation must be cleaned often. I learned this from Brian Withers. Even today, if I am found troubled, it is because my foundation must be cleared. I let it happen.

So yes, I believe that I can satisfy myself, my own high standard, because I deserve it, without harming another. To get it with intentional harm, is not my style. I am lazy enough to guarantee that I would never step over another for my success… I’d rather wait for a ladder or better yet, be carried- by a friend or by god.

Essentially- I believe I can do what I want to do, which is to live a happy, fulfilling and exceptional life. Exceptional precisely because it is healthy, honest and based on mastery. These are ordinary things.

An extraordinary life, built on ordinary life. It can be done, it is possible to be happy and enlightenment is a real thing.